Morning Mood

I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster this morning.  It began with me wondering why the hell I was up so early (5:00, the same time I wake up every other day, except I usually need an alarm clock).  So there was some anger and exasperation right away.  Then I stumbled into the kitchen and realized I never bought bread or eggs.  What was I going to make for breakfast?  Some sadness set in at that point.  I peeked in the cupboards, saw that I had most of a bag of granola and most of a container of yogurt (I had to look in my fridge to confirm that; I don’t keep my yogurt in the cupboard).  I had enough to satisfy my hunger for a short while.  Add in some coffee and some of the eight pounds of grapes I still had from Sunday’s visit to Costco, and I had enough food to keep me alive until I ate Thanksgiving Dinner at one o’clock in the afternoon.  So I made myself a bowl of yogurt and granola (heavy on the granola), and sat down at my computer.  The sadness at not having any food was gone, and the anger and exasperation of being up so early had left, as well.  I was awake, which is when I have most of my fun.  I became filled with love for all my great friends, and was (and still am) very thankful for them.  It was a good, positive feeling, and I wish I could have just let me mood stay there.  Unfortunately, my lack of sleep caught up with me, and I hit my wall, going from euphoric to exhausted.  It was just too much joy too soon in the day.

This all took place in the span of fifteen minutes.  I have a feeling this roller coaster still has some twists, turns, rises, and drops in it.